Don’t forget to live, ek hi zindagi hain: IITian writes in suicide note

别忘了活着，印度理工学院学生留下自杀遗言

HYDERABAD: A final year master’s degree student committed suicide by hanging himself at his hostel in Indian Institute of Technology, Hyderabad (IIT-H), attributing his decision to take the extreme step to his ‘poor grades’ and ‘failure to secure a job’.

Mark Andrew Charles left behind an eight-page long suicide note, a copy of which is with TOI. “I don’t have a job, probably wouldn’t get one. No one hires a loser! It’s amazing to look at my grade sheet. A few more letters and it’ll look like an alphabet chart,” the youth from Varanasi wrote. This is the second suicide reported at the institute this year. In February, a third-year student, Anirudhya Mummaneni, had jumped off the seven-storey hostel building. Mark was doing his masters in design and had recently completed his second-year exams. He was due for a final presentation on July 5.

海得拉巴：印度理工学院海得拉巴分校一名硕士研究生因“成绩差”、“找不到工作”，在宿舍上吊自杀。

马克·安德鲁·查尔斯留下了一份长达8页的遗书，《印度时报》将其刊发出来。“我没有工作，可能也找不到了。没人会雇佣一个失败者！我的成绩单看起来太吓人了。再多来几个字母，看着就像字母表了。”这位来自瓦拉纳西的年轻人写道。这是该研究所今年报告的第二起自杀事件。今年2月，一名三年级学生阿尼鲁迪亚·蒙马尼尼从七层楼高的招待所大楼上跳下。马克正在攻读设计硕士学位，最近刚刚完成了研二考试。他原定于7月5日作最后陈述。

“I did have dreams, just like everyone. But now, it’s pretty empty. All this positivity, the constant smiling, telling people that I am ok, even though I’m not,” Mark said in the letter addressed to his friends and parents.

The master’s student apologised to his parents for not being able to do justice to the sacrifices they made for him.

马克在写给朋友和父母的信中说:“我也有过梦想，就像所有人一样。但现在，我已经没有梦想了。我一直表现的很积极，总是面带微笑，告诉人们我很好，尽管我并不好。”

这位硕士生向他的父母道歉，因为他无以回报父母为他做出的牺牲。

“Two years away from home, at the best institute, with the best of people around me, I wasted it all,” the letter read, requesting his parents to not bury him and instead hand over his body for medical use. “I’ll make a good specimen cadaver to the future doctors of India,” he wrote in the note.

He also apologised to all his friends and said the last two months of his life were the best.

“我只身离家两年，在最好的学院求学，身边环绕着最优秀的人才，我浪费了这一切资源，”其在信中写道，并要求他的父母不要埋葬他，而是把他的尸体交给医院做研究之用。“我想给未来的印度医生保留一个很好的尸体标本，”他在纸条上写道。

他也向所有的朋友道歉，并称他生命中的最后两个月是最美好的时光。

以下是印度时报读者的评论

译文来源：三泰虎  http://www.santaihu.com/47979.html

外文：https://timesofindia.indiatimes.com

Ashok Pandey•15 hours ago

I did not have very good scores in MBA. Though I was depressed I did not give up hope. Even today I am trying hard to improve my quality of life.

我的MBA成绩不是很好。虽然我很沮丧，但我没有放弃希望。即使在今天，我也在努力提高我的生活质量。

Kadirvelayutham Uthirapathy•Karaikal•20 hours ago

I admitted my daughter in a degree course recently. With in a week, several other institutes are conducting sessions there to join other related studies also simultaneously. I could not understand the urgency to get a job.

我最近让我女儿参加了一个学位课程。一个星期后，其他几个研究所也将在那里举行会议，与其他相关研究同时进行。我不明白找工作的紧迫性。

Rajender Dobriyal•Unknown•20 hours ago

what a waste of a wonderful life, he could have lived and then shared with others and helped them to overcome failure, rather than ending his life

多么美好的生命啊，就这么浪费了，他本可以活下去，然后与他人分享，帮助他们克服失败的，而不是就这么结束他的生命。

Abhishek Nirmala Pandey•Unknown•1 day ago

Marks, grades, positions, is this only required for an life. If you wanted to live, you can live an life without any expectations...people live with an salary of 5000/-......Please live a simple life, suicide is not solutions for everything....parents please teach your childrens, how to lead an life without money....dont push them towards marks, scores....

分数、名次、职位，这就是人生唯一的目标吗？如果你想好好活下去，你可以选择不设期望值的生活。人们靠着5000卢比的薪水生活也能活....请选择简单的生活，自杀不是一了百了的万能解药…父母请教育你们的孩子，没钱怎么生活…不要用分数逼迫他们…

Gautam Natrajan•1 day ago

Sorry for the kid.Do the highly paid and respected IIT faculty have any responsibility regarding grades or not?

我为这孩子感到遗憾。享受高薪、受人尊敬的印度理工学院的教师对他的成绩是否有责任？

Lohar Sonar Combo•Azamgarh•1 day ago

There is a vast greenfield in politics for such "losers" in academics.,Wondering, why did not he join the national political drama in preference of life over death.,That, a person committing suicide for such & such reason has too many advises to give to others.

对于学术领域的“失败者”来说，政治领域有一片广阔的绿地。他不明白，为什么不加入这个国家的政治舞台，而宁愿选择一死。如果一个人因为这样或那样的原因而选择自杀，他可以给别人许多建议。

B Singh•1 day ago

While Speaking to my house cleaning maid, she told me. She earns upto Rs.25000, her son Rs.30000, her daughter. Rs.25000 and her husband too. In the end they take close to 1Lac/month. Same for hard working labor in USA/Canada who earn upto $7000-$10000/month working as trucker, crane operator . Our education system does not teach anything about money and this is why we see suicides. The only way they show is GRADES, GRADES, GRADES, JOB, JOB, JOB ..............

我和我家的清洁女工聊天，她告诉我：她挣25000卢比，她儿子30000卢比，她女儿25000卢比，她丈夫也一样。他们一个月的收入接近10万卢比。在美国/加拿大，同样从事卡车司机、起重机操作员等重劳力工作的人，月收入可达7000- 10000美元。我们的教育体系没有教过学生关于金钱的知识，所以我们一而再再而三地看到自杀现象。他们唯一能展示的就是成绩，成绩，成绩，工作，工作，工作。

Ashok•UK•2 days ago

It is shame to give up like this. I cannot have sympathy for an escapist. Just imagine the obstacles that dhirubhai or narayanmurthy had to face before making good. In spite of all this we cannot produce engineers who can be innovative and contribute like in western countries. There is something wrong with our education that even after so much hard work we only produce mediocre engineers. We still have no MIT or Harvard in India.

像这样放弃生命是可耻的行为。我无法同情逃避现实的人。想象一下迪鲁拜或纳拉扬穆尔蒂在成功之前面对的重重障碍吧。我们无法像西方国家那样培养出具有创新精神和贡献能力的工程师。我们的教育出了问题，在经过了这么多的努力后，我们也只能培养出平庸的工程师。我们印度依然没有麻省理工学院或哈佛。

Kumaravelu Parthasarathy•2 days ago

Utterly shocked in reading his letter. Somehow, i m recalling a character in 3 idiots movie, that song,

读到他的绝笔信，我感到十分震惊。我不由得想起了《三个白痴》里的一个角色和那首歌。

prem G•2 days ago

I have 33 arrears and no way I can even complete my degree,If u talk with me before ur decision definitely y would have changed it

我有33笔债务，我甚至无法完成我的学位，如果你在决定自杀之前和我谈谈，你肯定会改变心意的。

Yugratna Raghuvanshi•2 days ago

What a good guitar player you were Monku Bhaiya..That was totally nexpected. You should have thought even once about your younger bro. He is just in eleventh an he as to face so many things in life..According to me an elder brother or sister teaches us many things in our life...He has lost a guide in his family...,RIP-Mark Andrew

Monku Bhaiya，你的吉他弹得真好。这真是完全出乎意料。哪怕就一次，你也应该想想你的弟弟。他现在才十一岁，还无力面对生活中这么多的事情。就我个人而言，哥哥或姐姐在我们的生命中教会了我们很多事情……他失去了家中的一位向导。安息吧，安德鲁。

Mickey Nivelli•Unknown•2 days ago

SADLY some people in the grips of anger, envy or greed, like "road rage" - breed, many a mindless sad moment. When a failure or morbid impulse starts to control,the mind, we have attain life affirmative solutions. Suicides are irreversible resolutions of temporary problems. It is wiser to realize that each birth on this earth happened for,a specific purpose. So our sacred duty to the Almighty, is to make this place better before our departure.

可悲的是，有些人在愤怒、嫉妒或贪婪的控制下，会导致“路怒”般的情绪，很多时候都是愚蠢徒劳的悲伤。当一种失败或病态的冲动开始控制我们的思想时，我们已经获得了生活中积极的解决方案。自杀是对一时问题的不可逆转的解决办法。我们应该聪明地认识到，地球上每一个生命的诞生都有其特定的意义。我们对万能的神的神圣职责，就是在我们离开之前把这个地方变得更好。

Axa Aga•2 days ago

bloody IDIOT . . ..wasted efforts of his parents just for some grades & so-called job . . .absolute foolish

残忍无情的白痴…他父母为了他的分数和所谓的工作而白白浪费了多年的努力…太愚蠢了

Yugratna Raghuvanshi• Axa Aga•2 days ago

He was not a bloody idiot...He was such a good person... He knew how to live in difficult situations.. But he lost his self-confidence over here sir;

他不是一个该死的白痴……他真是个好人……他知道如何在困难的情况下生活。但是他失去了自信心。

Krishna Singhal•2 days ago

Very sad and painful,Whom to blame and whom not to blame,it is difficult without full knowledge and understanding,

太令人难过痛苦了，该责怪谁，不该责怪谁，没有充分的了解和理解是很困难的。

Work is Worship•2 days ago

Sad, Sad and very sad, indeed. We take life so foolishly and give it for the sake of praise from others. Be it studies or sport, or job, it is the inner satisafaction that matters. Peer comaprison are not the way to go about and committing a suicide is certainly NOT the solution.

悲伤，悲伤，真的令人非常悲伤。我们如此愚蠢地对待生命，为了获得别人的赞扬而搏命。不管是学习、运动还是工作，重要的是内在的满足感。同龄人的竞争不是该在意的事，自杀也不是解决问题的办法。

truth is god god is truth•Supreme lord Krishna space•2 days ago

Survival of the fittest to survival of the wisest is the 21st century wisdom, you proved again to the world education is the ability to meet the life''s challenges, there are so many school drop outs who became billionares by their dint of hard work and diligence and creativity, no education is worth without creativity, creativity is not bound only by bookish knowledge.

适者生存，最明智的是21世纪的生存智慧，你再次证明了世界教育是能够应对生活的挑战，有很多从学校辍学的学生通过他们的努力和勤奋和创造力成为亿万富翁，没有创造力的教育一文不值，创造力决不能是只存在于书本上的知识。

Jaffer Quadri•2 days ago

Life is never an easy go... people face problems everyday , everytime..Life loves taking examinations for a person . If you fail you can always do better next time...What happened to this poor soul was tragic but fighting back is always the second option ...you should choose the second one not the first option which is giving up.... All my friends always remember hardships come in your way because you have the potential to win.

生活从来都不是一件容易的事…人们每天都会面临种种问题。生活喜欢给人出考题。如果你失败了，下次肯定能做得更好。这个可怜的灵魂所遭遇的一切是悲惨的，但我们总有反击的第二项选择……你应该选择第二个选项而不是首选放弃…我所有的朋友们，请记得，困难总会出现在你的前进道路上，你总有获胜的潜力。

Venugopal Mangat•2 days ago

Very tragic... Here''s an intelligent and loving person who due to severe depression with feelings of worthlessness and low self-esteem could not realize his potential. Unfortunately, this tormented soul could not approach anybody for help nor could those around him realize his need for one. He didn''t want to trouble anyone...

太悲惨了…这是一个充满智慧和爱心的人，由于严重的抑郁症，觉得自己失去价值，自卑，无法发挥自己的潜能。不幸的是，这个饱受折磨的灵魂无法向任何人寻求帮助，他周围的人也无法意识到他需要帮助。他不想麻烦任何人……

cpl new•2 days ago

If some one knows his parents,and pass on thier details,i want to help them whatever i could

如果有人认识他的父母，请把他们的联系方式告诉我，我会尽我所能帮助他们。

cpl new•2 days ago

Such a touching note,unfortunate,he seems to be good guy,if he could had job or good counselling ,he could had best honest employee and employer can have,lot of besharam people progress with fake profiles etc honest people think to succeed with hard work,RIP and his parents should get courage,if some one known to his parents should take lead to help them in this difficult moments

这个绝笔信太令人动容了，很不幸，他似乎是好人，如果他能找到一份工作或找人好好倾诉咨询一下，他会成为最好的、诚实的雇员，城市的人会通过努力的工作来获得成功。安息吧，他和他的父母应该得到勇气，如果有人认识他的父母，应该在这个艰难的时刻帮助一下他们。

Know THE Truth•India•2 days ago

the reason for such cases is the increased expectations from the society, relatives and family, and the lack of timely counselling. Life is much more than grades. Even good grades are only a ticket to the industry, and nothing more. The problem today is that a handful of students get placement from google or facebook or microsoft with USD80K package. This news is advertised in indian rupees as Rs.50 Lakh annual package. Because of even those who get job offers of 8-10 Lakhs feel they are losers.... Read More

造成这种情况的原因是来自社会、亲戚和家庭的期望越来越高，缺乏及时的咨询求助。生活并不只有分数。即使取得了好成绩，也只是踏入行业的门票，仅此而已。现在的问题是，只有少数学生能从谷歌或facebook或微软获得8万美元的就业机会。这则新闻在印度报道时，年薪达到每年500万卢比。因为即使是那些得到80-100万工资的人也觉得自己是失败者……